The Thoughts of Mine

The encounter of ours were not even expected at the slightest. With much surprise, you had entered my life slowly. You became more significant as days passed. You were my home, you were where I want to be, you were who I want to be with, you were my dream come true. I did not notice, I were smiling to you all the time while I remained straight face with others. I did not realize a text from you can turn me happy. I did not realize I woke up everyday just to see you. I did not realize I grew greedy. I wanted more, even though I know it is wrong. I wanted more times that we can spend together, just the two of us. I wanted more, I want to be the one who is in your embrace. I wanted more, I want to be the one for you. Eventually, I was consumed by my own greediness. I wish to go back to the time when we just met. I wish to show you my better side when we just met. But now, I only wish to have the courage to tell you, how much I want you but I will not have you. 

I will stand here, I will wait for you. Take your time as you heal, I will wait.  Stray as far as you wish, I will be here.  Call me up when you need someone, I will be there.  Come into my arms when you need some comfort.  I will stay here, I promise.  My feelings for you shall remain.  I will not let you go, just stay in my arms for now, and forever. 

I could not forget, the moment when you wrapped your arm around me; the moment you pulled me closer to you; the moment you tighten the hug.  I was scared, I was scared that you refuse to, but you seemed okay when I asked for a hug. You walked to me with your arms opened. I got greedy at that moment, I never wanted to leave your arms.  Your arms wrapped around my petite body and I wrapped my arms around you. Such a blissful moment, the world just stood so still at that moment, can I just stay like that forever?  Slowly, we removed our arms from each others. I turned my back to you and took a few steps forward.  My tears rolled down knowing the time for separation is near. It was not the first time, second or third, it just can't seemed to stop. Turning my back towards you, hoping you don't see my tears, I guess, I was wrong.  You stood up, walking step by step closer to me each time, gently coaxing me to stop crying.  I lost my fight against my tears, I coul...

The day when you entered my life, it was totally unexpected. I never even dream about meeting you in such a situation. I did not pay much attention at you as I was busy living my life. Step by step, we became closer, we were drawn to each other, I believe. Just like how moths are always drawn to flames. Taking a step a day, we had known each other better. I shared my worries with you, you told me about yours. I know, you are the type of person who would rather piled up the concerns and worries in yourself, so, I am always glad when you tell me about yourself. I am used to having you by my side. I did not realize, the time that we have for each others is going nearer to the end each day. So, I just ask the God above, are we destined to remain in each other's life or not. So many questions that I wonder have no definite answer. I get excited and disappointed, I get overwhelmed too.  Will we meet again after a long time? Will we be guided into each other lives again? Will our path cro...

As time passes, the greed in us grows as well. Without realising, we are wanting more each day. Even when we are having the best, we still want more. Slowly, we forget that we already have what we initially hope for. In this busy life, we never take a rest to look back at what we had achieve. We are replacing materials and goods to our own life nowadays. We assumed that using those are able to fill the emptiness in our soul, but we are wrong, but we don't know what to do. Pathetic. Humans don't learn to be grateful, until that day, the sufferings will continue.