Is This The End?

I've worked hard, hard enough to show everyone around me how important that was to me. The passion to be part of the organization that grew stronger and stronger each day.

It faded, somehow.

I did my best, I tried as hard as I could, but no one seems to care. The organization wasn't as established as I thought. Did I regret?

Yes, I did.

At first, everything seems fine to me, it was absolutely a wonderland. I thought they were different, I thought I could be myself, not showing all the works straight up, they'll certainly see my hard work.

I guess I'm wrong.

They made me worked more than what I should do. I did. I did my best. Yet, the comments I got from them is just low performance. I wanted to scream, I wanted to shout. Despite the devil awakened in me kick me in my gut, I decided to stay quiet.

I'm highly educated.

I told myself and pushes those feelings aside. No one will understands me even if I tried to explain. Humans prioritize different things in their lives, they have different standing point, so they won't understand me.

Please, stop it.

They kept annoying me with all those questions "are you alright?". Yes, I'm. Stop asking me my personal life, stop trying to dig up my secret I had burried deep down in me. You're not my family nor friend, you're plainly my superior. You aren't that great.

Is it time?

"Should I leave?" This question had been running in my mind all day. What would happen to me if I really did quite. Will I look helpless? Will I look undetermined? Will I become a topic for people to gossip?

I don't know.

I don't want to know. So what, even if I leave? Will anyone notice my importance? Will anyone appreciate me? Will anyone even remember me? I guess not. I'm still deciding. But, who cares?

Let's see what future holds.

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