Diary

30.3.2019

I had been thinking a lot lately. The more I socialise, the more I want to be alone. I am lucky to have a vision of my life, but there are many obstacles. For example, the feeling of facing reality, the minor problems that surface and the people around me.

As I watch more and more dramas and movies, the ability to understand how a person can be so selfish became so normal to me. I can totally relate to them most of the time. Staying alive itself is not easy and we have so many more to deal with.

I am scared, am I changing? Am I not the one who I used to be? However, I am glad that I changed. How can a person be so paradox? That is what I am thinking lately. Well, there are so many more to learn, I am not confident in myself but I am curious at the same time.

Future, be nicer to me, will you?

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